I am being hit with way too  much right now and I feel my heart breaking. It isn’t even given to anyone to be broken. Maybe this move will actually be a good thing. There is no cell phone reception in the house at all. The only place there is reception is in one spot on the front porch. No reception= no texting and no texting= no talking to him. I need to get over him. My heart is just constantly breaking and it hurts way too much for him not to even be mine. He is all of a sudden in my life in three different areas and two of those areas are different networks. Networks that I can see who he is talking to and I know that sounds so stalker-ish but it is hard to avoid when it is right in front of my face to see every time I get on Facebook and it is just killing me. It also kills me when his sister knows how I feel about him and I tell her jokingly “I think He has a thing for Her” and she says “I know they talk so much and she is gorgeous and we get along famously” I mean seriously?! Come on! And of course because it is absolutely crazy that I like him I have to hide that it is killing me inside so know that even though him and I can date that it won’t happen for a while anyways. My best friend(his sister) knows how I feel about him and for her to say that knowing how she felt when the guy she loved/loves dated someone else because him and her were not able to be together just kills me even more. Hopefully I will be able to get out to Sanderson and start living a different life away from him and I will be able to get over someone that I knew and know I can’t ever be with. It’s going to be hard but the best way to get over someone is to cut them off and stop talking to them. Usually I have good will power but with him I have such a hard time so I know I won’t be able to just ignore him without completely stopping all forms of communication and since I will have no reception it won’t be hard for me to ignore him because I won’t even know he’s talking to me. This is so hard but sometimes it the hard things have to be done and someone has to have their heart broke right? The world can’t be daisies and rainbows all the time or else that would be too boring. Someone has to have their heart broken and unfortunately for my heart it is always the one that is broken. I can’t wait to get out of here so I don’t have to deal with this anymore.