If I could fast forward time I would do it in a heart beat. This kid is driving me absolutely INSANE! I am completely head over heels for him and there is NOTHING I can do but wait. It is SO annoying to me that I had to meet and fall in love with him at this age! I am so frustrated trying to sufice time with other guys knowing that at the end of the day I only come back to missing him and thinking about him and wanting to talk to him all night. I wish he were older or I was younger it just seems so unfair to have to wait so long for him. It sounds absolutely ridiculous to wait around for some kid to grow up and for his age to become legal for us to date but when someone is in your life and you know they are right it just is not ridiculous! I am getting so frustrated with waiting around for him. I have these blinders on with other guys where they are all fun and would make great boyfriends but they are not who I want. I wish I didn’t have to wait and I wish I could know how he feels although I am pretty sure I know I still cannot jump to conclusions. I am so annoyed but so completely happy knowing that if I wait that there could be a chance for something great and for a love that I have never known. I know that it sounds crazy but they say that when you love someone they make you feel like you want to be a better person and like you want to be the best person you can be. He makes me feel that way. He makes me want to better myself and make myself put one-hundred and ten percent into everything I do because when he does something he doesn’t do it unless he does the best he can possibly do at it. He is so smart and makes me want to strive to be smarter. He makes me laugh so much and makes me smile the whole time I am with him and to me that is so precious and so very important because smiling is something I love doing more than anything. Smiling makes someone’s day better it makes a room light up it brings warmth to wherever you are and he makes me smile like nobody ever has. I have never been sure about a guy before and I feel so sure about him but I have to wait. Waiting is the hardest part especially when you want to get to something you desire the most in this world.